Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Perspective: Love, Love's LOVE

Love, Love's LOVE.

With my desire for love I have come across an impass. In my past post I try to move beyond the impass by removing agent and action.

Love, Love's LOVE means

Agent A has LOVE for Agent B

Agent B has LOVE for Agent A

LOVE between A & B has love for both A & B

To Love, Love's LOVE is for both Agent A & B love the LOVE that is shared and given between.

Loving, Love's LOVE is a concept to work beyond duality.

Now I just need to further meditate on this and take it to Heart

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

Observation: On Desire

Ahhh desire,

Desire is an interesting topic for discussion. Desire is one thing that drives humans to act. Desire is also that which causes attachment, hat tip to Buddha and Nagarjuna.

I've found myself at an impass with regards to Love and Desire. I've blogged about my predicament before on Love, yet I seem to keep comin back to this impass.

I desire Love.

I desire others to have Love.

In fact one may say that my existence is for the purpose of spreading love.

So currently I am in love with another. Yet I am havin the darndest time communicating this feeling and I sense that it has to do with attachment to the feeling of Love itself.

So I say to myself, okay Mr. Bright guy, how you gonna work yourself around this one?

Problem with the desire to love is that the attachment is to the desire, not the Love.

So how do I get around this one. When agent and action have become one, one can move beyond duality and thus attachment. So mySelf being the agent and Love being the action, is a means for me to stop the desire/attachment. Simply put I must become LOVE, then and only then LOVE will I be.

Saturday, July 16, 2005

Observation: Contstant Trials

In my growth and desire to seek, happiness, love and healing I find that I am constantly tested in my resolve.

I have taken note of two locations within me that do not want to move with me. They my gaps, I call them gappy and gappy junior. More or less they are a couple of blockages on either side of my heart center.

Come to think of it, I have mirror blockages in my neck between my 6th and 5th Chakras.

So back to my tested resolve. It seems as though my sexuality is being tested as in my desire to be with many women. It's a animal instinct, it comes from our survival instinct and my creativity center. However, I my heart is focused on one soul and she is the only one I wish to make love to. This seems to be conflicting with how I have viewed my Self in the past. I have good control over this in physical format, however in my dreams while I travel the astral plane I find myself seduced by other women. In this state I am less conscious of my actions and I find myself engaging with these women.

I get the feeling that the parts of me that do not want to move are happy to engage while I am sleeping.

I need to bring in a new vibration to get them to move. I feel constantly tested. I seek my love, but I feel my whole being should be aligned.

I'll keep ya posted

Thursday, July 07, 2005

Observation: Dream Philosophy

Dreams from 2.

2 hearts and souls dream the same dream that they are meant for each other. Not only that, but together they shall accomplish great things for humanity and the Earth. With that type of projection sent out into the universe, reflected off of the mirror, I can see no other possibility but that thier dreams shall become reality and already are very real.

For in fact they are the same dream.

Ah what a beautiful dream space we can weave.

(I recommend checking out Shark Boy and Lava Girl, dreamers true and true)